3 Weeks down

So today marks three weeks down. We had a crazy first two weeks, My mom came to visit and made things quite hectic for me.... money wise and emotional wise.. it was crazy! Ended up sending her back to California and was pretty down and sad that we had to be all alone here again. It was like Matt leaving all over again. Then we started to get the hang of things again that second week that she was gone and got through the rest of that week and the third week pretty good. My boys and I have been trying to keep busy and hang out with friends. I take them out almost every day to go play some kind of outside sport ... we have played soccer and basketball and went swimming one day. Its pretty hard keeping up with them like they want me to with this big belly in front of me. I am trying my hardest to keep them busy and active. They have been saying quite often I miss my daddy.. or mommy is daddy home today ? I have to say though I am so much stronger this go around. Im pretty blessed that I have my two little boys to cheer me up! I am waiting the arrival of Lauren. I just cant wait to meet her! I want to see what she looks like already and how she will act! I am so curious how it will be with the three kids instead of 2. I only have 4 weeks till my c-section date. Hoping they go by fast but not too fast so I can still enjoy some time with my boys one on one.
I want to get to volunteer once or twice at Bryan's school before I have her... and take Alex to lunch or something he wants to do just me and him.
Matt received his first care packages from us on friday! He was so happy and I am glad because I think he was starting to get in a rut and get down but a  little stuff from home made him happy!

1 week

So my hubby has been gone 1 week. This has been such a busy, crazy, hectic week!our boys have acted up so much this week. I've cried and stressed out off and on this whole week! I wish I was in the part of my deployment that I had a routine and I wasn't so sad with out my hubby! Can't wait to get to that point! We chat with him daily once a day at the end of the day it always makes me so happy! I love that he can always make me laugh and smile. 
This last week we found out Lauren weighs 4 lbs 3 ounces. I think she's going to be my biggest baby yet. Makes me a little nervous. Plus I think she will stay in mommies belly the longest as well.
Can't wait to meet this little love of ours. I also was told this week that I had a prego rash called PUPPPs. It was super super itchy and hurt bad. Yet after a few days it seems to have died down and gone away,keeping my fingers crossed it stays away.
I'm trying to keep positive and happy. Keeping my faith in God and knowing he will give me this strength to take care of our boys and our daughter and myself.  One week down 25 more to go :)

Deployed...

February 1st 2013....

Today is my first day blogging in a long long time. We are about to embark on our 2nd deployment as a family. I have tons of feelings... I am nervous,excited,sad,worried,stressed.... We have two little boys Bryan who is 5 years old and will soon be 6... and Alex 4 years old. The last time daddy deployed they were 1 & 2 so its a bit different. Alex and Bryan have grown more and more attached to their daddy and so have I hehe! Plus we have a little girl Lauren who will be joining this world soon... her Due date is March 24th. With my track record we have no idea when she will arrive. Yes, daddy will miss her birth and about 5-6 months of the begining of her life. I think she will forgive him though! I am nervous because this is our first child I will be with out my partner = love of my life by my side.... My mom will be here , yet its never the same to have your best friend there to see our baby girl be born and watch her grow.  I am excited that we got her crib and dresser and stroller and car seat already so we have all that set up and ready for her and he got to be apart of all that which was a big sigh of relief!
 Daddy leaves in two days on Sunday Feb 3rd... my heart feels the slightly familiar breaking that has started.  Breaking for my boys, my daughter and my hubby who has to miss it all, & for me having to be with out my partner and Best friend for 6 months. I know it could be worse  I know I have my faith in our Lord and my strength that he has given me and I know I am going to get through this. We all will. I pray that these next 6 months go by super fast and we are back in daddies arms sooner than we know it and that Ms. Lauren gets to meet her daddy!
This time around I am not as devistated for the deployment. I feel like I some what know what to expect. The boys have been acting out a lot more lately.... The kids are never ready for their parent to leave.. One day at a time...