Deployed...

February 1st 2013....

Today is my first day blogging in a long long time. We are about to embark on our 2nd deployment as a family. I have tons of feelings... I am nervous,excited,sad,worried,stressed.... We have two little boys Bryan who is 5 years old and will soon be 6... and Alex 4 years old. The last time daddy deployed they were 1 & 2 so its a bit different. Alex and Bryan have grown more and more attached to their daddy and so have I hehe! Plus we have a little girl Lauren who will be joining this world soon... her Due date is March 24th. With my track record we have no idea when she will arrive. Yes, daddy will miss her birth and about 5-6 months of the begining of her life. I think she will forgive him though! I am nervous because this is our first child I will be with out my partner = love of my life by my side.... My mom will be here , yet its never the same to have your best friend there to see our baby girl be born and watch her grow.  I am excited that we got her crib and dresser and stroller and car seat already so we have all that set up and ready for her and he got to be apart of all that which was a big sigh of relief!
 Daddy leaves in two days on Sunday Feb 3rd... my heart feels the slightly familiar breaking that has started.  Breaking for my boys, my daughter and my hubby who has to miss it all, & for me having to be with out my partner and Best friend for 6 months. I know it could be worse  I know I have my faith in our Lord and my strength that he has given me and I know I am going to get through this. We all will. I pray that these next 6 months go by super fast and we are back in daddies arms sooner than we know it and that Ms. Lauren gets to meet her daddy!
This time around I am not as devistated for the deployment. I feel like I some what know what to expect. The boys have been acting out a lot more lately.... The kids are never ready for their parent to leave.. One day at a time...