At a stand still

So we are almost at 5 weeks down and I feel like I am at a standstill. I feel like time is starting to go slower and slower. Waiting for my newborn to be born is very hard at this point . My body is so tired and in pain already. I am hoping she comes VBAC. So I do not have to spend all that time recovering from surgery with a C-section.
I am excited my mother in law will be here in 3 days and she will be able to help out a lot with the boys. Taking bryan to school and doing all the morning stuff and picking him up with me.. if I can still keep walking up till its time to have Lauren. I went to get a growth scan yesterday and Lauren was estimated to be about 6lbs and 9 ounces so far. I still have two weeks so I am thinking she is going to hit the 7lb mark! She is our heaviest baby !  She was sticking out her tounge again! she is so cute. I can not wait to see her little face! I can not wait to meet my daughter for the first time. I can not wait to see who she looks like, I am hoping she looks just like her daddy!
I am missing my hubby so much. I wish he was here to go through the Dr. appointments with me, yet I realize there is a reason that I am doing this by myself and I feel that I am strong enough to get through this and feel very blessed that God would entrust me with this big honor! He thinks very highly of me! I am super excited to have the feeling that I accomplished so much while Matt was deployed and that I once again grew stronger as a person and stronger as a military wife and mom.

I am trying my hardest to stay positive and not complain but there are times when I feel so a lone and feel so tired of doing it a lone. I think that is when I try my hardest to pray and draw closer to God to get my strength and faith from him.