I am feeling so emotional today! I have cried at the drop of a hat. I have been crying because I am adding a new child to this family. The fact that she is our little girl, the fact that I am going to be leaving the boys home with friends and then my mother in law while I am in the hospital for the two or so days makes me so sad. I am sad because my hubby is not here and that breaks my heart. I am sad because I still have 4 months and 2 weeks before he will even meet his daughter and before I can feel his hug and kiss! I feel so anxious about another c-section , I feel so anxious about being in the hospital... I feel so anxious that she has not come out yet.. I have never even gotten farther than 37 weeks to the date.. and I am going to be 39 weeks soon! Sunday is D day! She gets cut out on sunday if I do not go in to regular labor and its making me anxious.
The boys have been so hard to handle lately! its been overwhelming. It is like they do not want to listen to any one for nothing! My Mother in law has been very helpful! she has let me sleep in and has taken over dinner for them and takes them to parks and to play basket ball its been such a blessing to have her here ! I am so greatful!
I miss Matt so much! I have been so strong up till this point and I pray and pray that I will continue to stay strong and get even more strong! We are down 6 weeks!!! and in 5 days I will have a new baby girl added to our family.. that is so weird to say and to feel! I am excited!!! :)
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